Hope and No Hope

Just got back from a weekend in Florida and it was just what we needed, quick getaway from everything. The weather was wonderful.

Monday was back to reality when we had our phone consult with Dr. Saleh from SIRM Dallas.  He basically said because of my partial hysterectomy, my ovary function has decreased so therefore I am producing eggs as a 42 yr old and he gives me only 30% of success.:(  I was devastated once again.   My local RE has said as a result of never having any frozen embryos for someone my age and the embryo quality was due to my decreased ovarian function (blood flow).  Dr. Saleh would do the estrogen priming protocol for me and he has suggested doing acupuncture and pycogenyol (pine bark) for 2 months to let my ovaries rest.   

Before we left to Fla, we had a phone consult with Dr. Sher SIRM Vegas. He seemed very knowledgeable about different protocols.  I even asked him about how my decreased ovary function resulting in bad embryos and bad eggs. He said that was bogus and he did not believe that was the case.  He would use the agonist/antagonist protocol on me and use luveris instead of menopur. He writes a blog and seems to be on the search for different protocols and different combination of medications. He restored some of my hope until Monday came around. Sigh.

I don't know what to think anymore. I have two more phone consults, next week with Dr. School and then a week after with Dr. Sargutso ( Shady Grove).  I hope they have better news for me but I doubt it.  I need to accept the fact that my chances of having a baby are slim to none. 

And then after all that, I hear that Chris Daughtery and his wife, 37 who had a partial hysterectomy in 2006 are having twins through a surrogate.  What clinic did they go to? Who was their RE? Did they use donor eggs? I want to be on her protocol!! And on top of that after 6 IVF cycles, Celine at 42 is pregnant with twins. So I guess there is a little glimpse of hope??????????

hates ignorant people!

So my parents know about IVF #1 and just yesterday she said she heard from her cousin that a couple they know went through IVF and after that had a child with disability and lost all their money and assets.  My parents are strict and old fashioned as well as her cousin. The cousin believes that you should not mess with mother nature and since the couple who did IVF did, that was the result. I told my parents, even people who get pregnant the normal way have children with disabilities. I was so pissed. I did not ask for the cousin's opinion or his views on IVF.  He has not been in our shoes so he doesn't know.  I explained to my parents there are tons of couples that have infertility issues and go through IVF and have success pregnancies. Ughhh so pissed!  IVF is not easy and it takes a toll on your emotionally and now I have to deal with this too.  Its so sad that I can't have my parents be supportive now that my cousin has poisoned their minds. I couldn't even tell them about IVF #2. 

At A's birthday party, there were babies everywhere. It made me extremely sad but I kept a happy face and stayed away from the mother's and their kids. Thanks goodness I do not know most of them so I did not have to talk to them. It never gets easy does it?

Today, we have our consult with Dr. Sher, still waiting for him to call. I hope he gives us some positive news, I really need something positive right now!!